Winter chill

Cold wind pushes me
Tell me to control my steps
For if my eyes fail to see
Cold wind will make me slip

Gray clouds follow me
Tell me that I'm on my own
For if I feel security
Gray clouds soak me to the bone

Freezing air numbs me
Tell me that I'm still alive
For if I ever doubt it
Freezing air shall revive

Colors and Promises

I have 3 more empty canvases to fill. This is probably the biggest set I've ever done, and I am very proud of what I'm doing so far.
So proud, in fact, that I plan on using these pieces as a catalist to get my work put on display somewhere.

The inspiration in my life astounds me.

I look forward to sharing this project with people when it's completed.

Not Just Another Year

Around my birthday it is normal for me to write a summation of what I have learned the past year... This year I'm not even sure where to begin.
Early in the year I stopped letting fear control me. I learned that giving up on my dreams of a happy, and bright future was not an option anymore.

This year I went from being abused, to taking control of my own life. Now I am a surviver.

It doesn't seem real that my birthday is only two days away. It doesn't seem real that this year is almost over. I felt like it was just getting started, only to realize that because of my abuser the first 5/6 month of this year have seemed to disappear somewhere in my mind.
In and out of court, fighting slander and seeking protection. Canvasing the area for a job.
I went from over a year of unemployment to having a job that I absolutely love. I went from being told I was lazy, stupid, and worthless to being praised and admired for my hard work and determination.

I have so many wonderful people in my life, that I never would have met if this year had gone differently... People who very quickly signed their names on a piece of my heart.
I learned that love surrounds me whereever I go. I learned that I love deeply and fully and with everything in me, every time.

I learned my own strength. I can overcome any thing that life throws at me.

I look forward to 2013 and the lessons to come. There are great things in the works for me, it's just up to me to make things how I want them to be.

All consuming

Obsessive thoughts
Of this demand of time
Lessons taught
By men on my dime

Harder and harder
I prove my worth
Broken I barter
With my own rebirth

See this lust
For life being lived
Shake off the dust
From opinions to give

Confidence gained
In the work I do
Masks are named
I wear for you

Anything you want
It's my position to serve
Bodily haunt
A ghost of the nerves