You talked about marrying me. You talked about having children with me. You told me you would take care of me, support me, and show me the world.
You craved my touch, as I yours. An addiction I never expected to have, and it felt SO true. As if the rest of the world was the lie... and this was the only truth. We were the only truth.
But the only reasons I was so convinced were the way you looked at me and the electricity I felt when we touched. I saw the most beautiful image of myself that I have ever seen, reflected back to me every time I looked in your eyes.
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That is why I am hurt. Because now, from the things you have said to me and the things you haven't said that I know anyway, all of those amazing moments are tarnished. I was just a game you were playing. Life, is just a game you are playing.
What I am trying to take away from this is that you showed me what kind of love I am really searching for and I will not accept anything less. Because I deserve to feel that kind of love, in a true form. I deserve to feel the way you made me feel but for real this time... and the promises will be kept and the dreams will come true... I thought it would be you, even though I knew better from the beginning, somehow I was still convinced.
Now that I know it will never be YOU... I'm holding out to feel that way again. Maybe you ruined me... If you did that's fine... Because I would rather you be my last than nothing at all...
