Sometimes, especially recently, I would love to just tell everyone exactly who I am and what I've done.
I've done things that I would not even tell my closest friends... But I want to. I want to just say fuck everything, tell the world my secrets and then move the fuck on.
Most of my "secrets" are what I would call thought crimes. Horrible things that I think... About myself, about others, about doing to myself or others...
I don't understand why my mind works this way. I like to think I'm not alone in this, but I'm pretty sure that I really am a terrible person.
I'm lazy, selfish, unmotivated, and not to mention stupid. It's like I've spent my whole life pretending to care... But deep down, I don't give a fuck about anything. And that is not fair to anyone... I've fooled everyone who cares about me into thinking that I have potential.
But... I just don't give a fuck anymore...
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